Crap. What kind of mess have I gotten myself into? I've got at least three days of homework that I need to complete all by tonight and all these meetings that keep coming up today are really messing with my schedule. But besides all the work, this has been a tough weekend as a JA. Frosh puking (not just my own mind you), threats of the snack bar closing early (two puking incidents in two nights in the snackbar is not helping the cause), trying to defend the frosh class to other people who want to use them as a scapegoat, and then the kicker, a prefrosh being sent to the hospital last night. I'm not sure I'm up to this responsibility anymore as are most of the other JAs. Its scary stuff. I don't know if I can go out anymore. I mean, going out with friends, maybe drinking and partying a little, and then coming back and having sick people. I mean, if you aren't in the right state of mind, how can you deal with it? When I was taking care of people on Friday, I was not all there. I might have been able to do a better job if I was. And last night, my friend who was trying to take care of the drunk prefrosh and call the ambulance, he wasn't all there. And he had every right to go out last night and party a little and enjoy himself. Its just scary shit; all the liability aside, I just want these kids to be safe and I don't see that happening a lot lately. I just wish I had more time to focus on this stuff, and more time to spend with my entry, but I'm realizing slowly and slowly that I'm not spending enough time taking care of myself. My academics are going to shit again and my personal life is always a mess. Damn, when will a break come?