Finals are over. I'd say I was relieved, but I know I didn't do as well as I could or should have on that last final. Damn you Swamy. I was feeling so good after the Math final and then you turn around and give us this killer test. Made one mistake on the first question and the question was worth 10% of the whole damn test. How much does that suck, already knowing you can't get an A on your final? But now that everything is done, I'm bored. I already cleaned my room. I packed for home in less than half an hour. And its kind of gloomy out. Just sitting in my room watching movies and shit. I kind of want to go home, but I also just want to vegetate for a week. I'll probably join the rest of the Mission folks tonight, watching some movies and drinking beer in the lobby. Hopefully Kim will come over for a bit.

It's been getting to me lately. All my friends and I mean all my friends here at Williams are so happy, each with the significant other who seems to complement them so well. Its strange, all of a sudden, all my friends had boyfriends and girlfriends. What the fuck? Everyone talks about how there is no dating on this campus. Maybe they mean casual dating, but shit, ever one of my friends is dating someone. And it makes me sick. One, I can't hang out with some of them in the same way anymore and my anger towards that seems to go unnoticed or just unrecognized. Also, it makes me feel lonelier. But don't get me wrong, I'm really happy for all of them. They really are all great together: Ari and Chlo, Elizabeth and Bryce, Alexis and Noam, Candice and Andy, Matt and Mariah, and the rest of the bunch. Couldn't be happier for them. Just wish I could be as happy. Fuck it. Like Alex said, sometimes trying to hard is what keeps things from happening. Plus, I'm scared shitless.