Just got off the phone with Maureen and I think I'm sobering up. Thanks Maureen for listening to me rant and rave about the horrible nature of love. And thank you Matt for caring so much about my well being. Got scared when I looked up some info about the shit I was doing. Scared man. Damn.

Oh yeah, classes ended today and I totally failed at my goal for the week to attend all my classes. Skipped class on Monday and today, but it was worth it cause I got to chill and it a wonderful breakfast with Alexis. It really is all about those moments. Got to cherish them when they happen.

So sticking to Alex's advice, I'm just gonna ignore all this shit and let things take their course. It's really hard advice to follow, but most likely it will do me good cause I needs to focus on finals. But in the end, I'll probably fall back on Maureen's advice and just be honest with her.

Shit, my mind is spinning. Maybe I'm still drunk or high or just delusional. This week has been really hectic and really crazy. Just finished fighting with Candice over IM. By finished, I mean that she fell asleep or so I was told by her boyfriend. So I'm not really sure if I was fighting with her or her boyfriend. I guess it is all the same in the end. I'm just getting sick of all my girl-friends getting boyfriends and then fucking ditching me. Fucking sucks. like I told Maureen, I feel like the "gay boyfriend." But of course, everyone knows I'm not gay (well almost everyone) and then it's just not cool for me to hang out with people's girlfriends.

This brings up another thing. Developed a bunch of pictures. Some of the Northwestern crew. I love you guys. Some racy pictures of me and Jacki that I don't remember taking. Ha Ha. God damn I am a home wrecker.

God damn I'm sad.