It's coming...

something bad...i can feel it. I know Dani doesn't want me to say that, but I feel something big, something bad happening...and not to campus, but to me and it'll be something that I brought on myself.

Why this grim outlook?

Maybe it's because I feel so inadequate when it comes to the job search. Maybe its because I'm being informed that I might have to go speak to the Deans about accusations made against me regarding the party on friday and my peer monitor who got drunk and flipped out. Maybe its the fact that I've never felt so caught up in my life and at the same time, that scares the shit out of me. Maybe its because I still haven't found love. Maybe its because I don't feel so bad calling myself shady. Maybe because I've felt so untouchable for so long. Maybe because I've put myself in positions that bring much public scrutiny. Maybe its because I don't want it to end.