So Tam told me that a friend had heard me read some of my poetry last year and said it was good and that she had to hear some of it some time. It made me sad because I haven't written in a really long time, I haven't forced myself to put down in words the things that are making me so torn. A lot of times is just my lack of focus. and sometimes I know that it would be too hard to write and don't challenge myself to do so. I said it in an earlier post...I don't push myself hard enough. I don't think I took that to heart. I don't know how to anymore. I'm viewing things at arm-length. You can't hug people at arms length.