So I'm at work. For those that do not know, I've been in Cali for about a month now. I'm crashing on my brother's futon. I work as an "intern" in the campaign office of Congresswoman Loretta Sanchez and I do some side work for my brother. So I was on AIM, not paying much attention when I get this random IM from some person I don't know. I figure, what the hell, I might was well accept it. To my surprise, the guy said "Fuck you!" and then signed off. Now my first reaction is that its one of my dumb-ass friends, but I check and most of the guys who would do that have been online for hours, so it probably wasn't them. Whatever, just brush it off and get back to work, but I can't. I'm actually bothered by something as stupid as that. I start thinking of all the people I could have pissed off and maybe they sent me that IM or one of their friends sent that IM on their behalf. Its not like I have a huge list of "enemies" (and I use that term lightly), but it really bothers. I know where I've made mistakes. I was stupid last year and I burned a couple bridges which will def. not be easy to fix, if at all. I regret a lot of those mistakes. I made a promise that I was going to come back to school a new person this next semester, revitalized, especially cause now I'm gonna have a whole group of frosh to look after and I guess a whole class of JAs, being co-prez. (I always forget I'm the co-prez and actually have responsibilities to take care of.

Anyways, I haven't made much progress on that or any of my other goals for the summer. I'll admit that I've taken time to relax cause I was in dire need of some rest and time away from school. I think that's why I screwed up so much last semester, personally and academically. I took on too much stuff, got burnt out real quick and then was easily agitated. I also got very prideful and sought recognition. That's something I really need to work on. Service for the sake of serving...a true goal.

But yes, I'm already worrying about next semester. I've decided to par down my class load to a normal level (only 4 classes!!), but I can see myself screwing that up already. I already want to take a side music class which would make the load pretty hard. And I even had a dream about missing my classes on the first day and getting dropped from them. (I'm such a nerd.)